LEAVING FOR UNI

So today is the day I leave home and go to university. I'm writing this sitting in my car surrounded by bags and boxes containing most of my possessions. I have mixed emotions (as I imagine every new student does) because I'm leaving my home of twelve years and for the first time I will be on my own without my family. I'm nervous about everything. Like how will we sort out who has what cupboard in the kitchen and the classic what if I've forgotten something. I had a painc thinking I left the straighteners on knowing full well I'd packed them in one of my many bags. However despite all this I'm excited. Excited to start this exciting new chapter of my life in a new city and study something I'm passionate about. I'm excited for all the exciting field trips and the people I'll meet but I'm also sad for the people I leave behind. Granted, I'm still going to see them but it'll be a four hour trek to see my mum for one of her pep talks. My best friend will be going back to uni as well and I'm going to miss her more than anything. (prepare for cheesey sentence) She is the person I open up to the most and not being able to see her everyday will feel like I'm missing my left hand. Who else will understand my love of drag queens!!! Despite all of this I'm not going to let my anxiety win and I'm going to walk into the flat with the biggest smile and try not to cry (mainly because I've just done my makeup). Fake it till you make it right? 


To be honest I'm sure why I wrote this (bit of a crap post I know) but I wanted to get my feelings out there in the hope it makes the nerves easier to deal with. After all this is my blog. Anyone else going off to university this weekend? For so how do you feel about it? Let me know in the comments I'd love to chat. 

Speak to you soon, 
Love Georgie xxx


MY THANK YOU LETTER TO MICHELLE VISAGE

Heye guys! Apologies in advance because this is probably gonna be supper cheeses and cringey so if you're not into that click away now. I went to drag wold this weekend (which was amazing btw) and I had the chance to meet one ofor my idols Michelle Visage. There are many reasons I look up to Michelle, such as the fact she never gave up on her dreams and worked really  hard to get her success (read her book and you'll understand). I reGretna not telling her this weekend how her book and her words have changed my life. I know she's never going to read this but I wanted to share something that she wrote in her book (go read it it will change your life) about her struggles wih eating and how she overcame an eating disorder. For those of you who don't know I'm currently in ED recovery and this chapter was helped me to accept the reality that I have an eating disorder because I saw so many similarities between what Michelle went through and what I'm struggling with. So what I'm trying to say is Michelle if by some absolute miracle you're reading this I want to say thank you. You're words, courage and perseverance has changed my life and everytime I relapse or give into the negative voice I read your book and it helps me keep fighting. I wish I had been able to say this to your face rather than you have cute glasses (btw I still love and need them) but I was a chicken. I know this sounds really cheesey and people probably say dumb stuff like this to you all the time but I wanted to put this out there because you have changed my life and I see you as something much more than a judge on a reality show on netflix. I see you as a role model and someone to look up to. So thank you for being my inspiration.


Love Georgie xxx

FIVE WAYS TO BE MORE ECO-FRIENDLY


Hey guys. I was involved in a blogger chat on Twitter a couple of weeks ago which got me thinking about my blog and the direction I want to take. Don't get me wrong I still love fashion and beauty and I really want to start a pro recovery series seeing as I'm in recovery for an eating disorder. But I wanted to also have a bigger shift in focus towards the environment seeing as that is a huge passion of mine and what I will be studying at uni in September. So I thought that I'd start off by sharing ways you can reduce your ecological footprint and help save a couple of polar bears. 

1. Use E-Books. 
Since I've brought my kindle, the only paper books I brought are text books and revision guides (mainly so I can highlight. Not only are E books a lot cheaper but I also have so much more storage availed in my room (for extra makeup). It also helps to save paper and water (seriously Google how much water is used to make paper, it will blow your mind). Also buying books second hand is another alternative. not on,y are you reducing the demand for raw materials but second hand books are a lot cheaper. 

2. Buy local food. 
Oh my goodness. I know it's sad but whenever we go to a supermarket I look how far it had to travel and sometimes it actually amazes me how many food miles my mum has racked up. So we buy our fruit and veg from a local market so we have a lower oil consumption as a household. Also locally foods are more likely to be organic and there's no issue with ethics so I would seriously reccomend it. 

3. Plant more flowers. 
I kind of want to do a seperate post on gardening and attractions pollinators so I'll keep it brief. Not only will your house look so much better but a few extra flowers will also help attract wildlife and increase pollinators. Not just pollinators, you can also attract birds, frogs and smaller mammals. 

4. Seperate your waste. 
Seriously guys we need to start recycling more to reduce the demand for raw materials. It also means more waste can be repurposed and reused. I mean think about the other alternatives. Landfill or an incinerator. One destroys habitats and soil structure and the other increase greenhouse gas levels. Not a lot of great choices. Before you out bottles out make sure they're rinsed because some recycling plants get lazy and just throw out dirty rubbish. 

5. Stop eating animal products! 
Or at least reduce them. I seriously reccomend you watch Cowsiracy because that changed my life. Animal agriculture produces more greenhouse gas emission that all modes of transportation globally. Not to mention it is also the leading cause of deforestation, particularly in the Amazon. Personally, I feel that eating animal products is unethical as well but I was particularly shocked by the massive environmental impact and that was the man reason I went vegan. I seriously suggest you begin to educate yourself on the environmental impact and maybe that will help you transition to a vegan lifestyle. 

So those are som ideas of how to become more eco friendly and reduce your car in footprint. I would love to include more posts about the environment in the future seeing as in September I'm going to study environmental science at uni (wish me luck). Speaking of uni, comment any advice you might have below because I'm nervous af. 

Speak to you soon, 
Love Georgie xxx


MISGUIDED WISHLIST


Anyone else have a huge obsession with Misguided or is it just me. I feel like a huge portion of my pay check goes to them and they should be really greatful for my business. I've never had an issue with them, my orders always been right and the clothes I brought have lasted. I also love the fact they have deficient themes in their website because I basically live in black and love anything slightly more edgy and grunge style. I added a few things on here that I would love to wear when I get my confidence back with how I look and I think I might get back to feeling confident in a shorter dress much quicker than I think. Fingers crossed. Anyway these are the five things I actually need from Misguided but don't be afraid to put some links in the comments to items you want as well.... so I can defiantly not buy them. 

1. Black scarf print kimono playsuit £28
2. Burgundy roll sleeve crop top £6
3. Black floral print dress £18
4. Black suede studded dungaree playsuit 
5. Tortoise shell black sock boots £24
6. Black striped playsuit £15

Let me know which one of these is your favourite in the comments. I defiantly need 2 and 4! 

Speak to you soon, 
Love Georgie xxx


TOP FIVE FOOD BLOGS


This probably isn't the post you expected from me but one thing I've found to help with my eating is by making my own food. I've decided that when I move to uni I'm going to try a plant based diet (or at least eat more plant based). I feel a lot more comfortable eating this because it is lower in calories which makes me feel less guilt when eating. Also it's way better for the environment, I mean seriously watch Cowsiracy because it will change your life. Anyway I started looking at food blogs and adapted recipes for my recipe book to help me cook for myself when I'm at uni. Granted I have made the portions smaller and currently if I Cooke then this is the only meal I have a day but it's progress. Anyway, here are my top five plant based food blogs in no particular order. 

CHEAP LAZY VEGAN (www.thecheaplazyvegan.com)
So I first found Rose's YouTube channel and instantly subscribed because most people think veganism is kinda expensive and requires you to only use fresh ingredients. Her recipes are really simple and require minimal ingredients making them affordable, perfect for any student. Fun fact, the recipes I've tried taste really good and you should defiantly try the creamy pumpkin pasta recipe (go to archive and click October 2016) because it's so simple but will change your life. 

PICK UP LIMES (www.pickuplimes.com)
This is another one I found on YouTube first and I found Sadia's channel very easy to follow and relaxing to watch (sounds dumb I know). She's a nutritionist which makes me feel very reassured that what I'm eating is healthy and good for me. Her recipes also taste really good and are easy to make which is a bonus. One of my favourite posts was the vegan pantry essentials which will help me a lot at uni to make sure I have all the right foods in my cupboard. 

LIVS HEALTHY LIFE (www.livshealthylife.com)
Now I've been following Livs blog and channel for the longest. I think the first video I watched was her lunch bento box video (because I was looking for food to take to work) and I just find her explanations really easy to follow and her recipes always sound and look amazing. Obviously she does really healthy home cooked recipes but she also does a huge amount of baking and vegan comfort food. Honestly I don't really want to eat any of that at the moment but I love her healthier dinner recipes and I feel like I can eat loads of her recipes without worrying and without feeling guilty. 

FROM MY BOWL (www.frommybowl.com)
This is written by Caitlin Shoemaker and I find her recipes are perfect for students. She makes easy five minute the recipes and recently posted 5 Mexcian recipes for $5 each which is worth a read. I also love the fact she does t cook with oil which makes all her dishes really healthy and lower in calories and fat. She also does a lot of meal prep which is ideal for students and they can save money by not wasting food. 

THE FULL HELPING (www.thefullhelping.com)
Now one of the main reasons I love this blog is that it also tackles eating disorders and body image mainly because Gena has battled anorexia. For me I find this really comforting and helpful because I need help improving my relationship with food and I feel like there are recipes that are helping to improve that gradually. She also offered nutritional counselling which is amazing if you want to talk to someone who understands where you are. There are also some really lovely recipes on here so the blog is perfect for anyone. If you're not convinced check out her Instagram, it will give you food envy. 

So those are the food blogs I reccomend you follow. Cooking defiantly helps in my ED recovery because I like to know what goes into my food but it may not work for you. Just know every person is different and if you start to slip again (we've all been there) please go back to the doctor or a specialist. Also you don't have to be in recovery to follow some great food blogs. Go check them out and let me know some of your favourite recipes. 

Who's you're favourite food blogger? Let me know in the comments below. 

Speak to you soon, 
Love Georgie xxx


ED RECOVERY (and post exam update)

Hey guys! I know I have a habit of saying I'm back then leaving for two months (whoops) but I'm really feeling my blog at the moment. I've had a lot on my plate with my eventful diagnosis and exams (which went well by the way). I received an unconditional off from my favourite uni so I'm going either way. That defiantly took the pressure off but I still work reall hard. Too hard according to my mum. I've also started working a lot more to get money saved for uni which has been challenging considering I work in food service and I have an eating disorder. The two don't really mix well and I've been struggling. I have my ups and downs (like yesterday I had pudding after dinner) but I still find myself obsessed with my weight and calories. Despite this I feel like this time I can finally beat this thing because I'm. it doing it by myself. I have my mum who supports me but doesn't nag me about eating or constantly tells me I'm fine. I know it's really hard for her but I'm so greatful because it makes me feel like in the near future I won't have to worry and painc about food. However, I still struggle a lot. I always have to know what I'm eating and I can't go to restaurants without knowing the nutritional information or looking at the menu online first. I know I'm still not eating enough but it was more than it was a few mine this ago so I'm counting that as progress. I'm not really sure I want to go into anymore detail but I wanted to write down a few things Amin,y to let you guys know I'm doing okay and to let other people with eating disorders know that it is going to take time. I've had mine for over three years know and I've only started to get help. You just have to be patient. This was kind of more of a filler post but hopefully k should have some more cheery content for you guys soon. 

Speak to you soon, 
Love Georgie xxx


BEING DIAGNOSED WITH AN EATING DISORDER

Hey guys! So I've been gone for a really long time and I know I should get back into blogging with something lighthearted and fun but I've had a couple of serious changes in my life that have made me think about the direction my blog is taking. I've been officially diagnosed with an eating disorder. I say officially because it's something I've been dealing with on and off for a long time but it's only recently that a medical professional has sat me down and said the words eating disorder. It just seems more real. It's now an issue my family and close friends are aware of which really scares me. The amount of people that tell me I'm fine how I am or I'm becoming too skinny is ridiculous. It really doesn't help me and makes me feel worse about the whole thing. I know I have to deal with this because I want to go to uni without worrying that I'll make myself ill which is why I have decided to something about it. I always thought I wasn't skinny enough to have an eating disorder (sounds really dumb I know) which is why I think I was scared to tell anyone or go to a doctor because I thought they would just roll their eyes and send me on my way. Recently my best friend told me that eating diorders happen to people regardless of gender and size because it depends on the person. This also got me thinking about my blog and the direction it was taking. Recently I haven't really been feeling it and I think that's because I was bored of my content. I loved writing it three years ago but I've changed so much since then and I've accepted things about me that I hated when I first started blogging. I am still going to post my favourite products and tags and typical girly blogger stuff but I want the main content to be about me and getting better. I mean it's mainly going to be based around my recovery from my eating disorder but I also wanted to talk about my anxiety and other topics I've been to afraid to say out loud. To be honest I don't care who reads it's just my way of getting things off my chest to make my life a little bit less stressful because I really want to get better. 

I know some people will find this weird that I've wrote this for a bunch of strangers in the Internet to read but it's not just about me. There are so many people who are in the position I was a year ago where you don't know how to ask for help or don't know how to get the words 'I have an eating disorder' to come out of their mouth. Yes, it helps me to write my feelings on my blog but I also want people in the same position as me to read it. Or just to get some support from a stranger across the world. I don't want to have unload everything on my poor mum who's been through hell (thanks to me) the last few weeks. 

So those are the changes I'm going to be making to my life. Come and follow me on the weird and probably slightly depressing road to recovery. 

Speak to you soon, 
Love Georgie xxx